Hello
So I've been registered here for quite some time now, but usually I don't write ***** anywhere in here due to social anxiety. Have Avoidant PD and depression.
Anyway, besides of this, I also have very maladaptive coping mechanisms. If I feel a strong emotion, the only way I am capable of discharging it is threw dissociation ("estrange" from the feeling, act like it wasn't there, kind of hard to describe), eating attacks (which worsen social anxiety due to weight) or maladaptive daydreaming.
The latter one being daydreams that can be so intense that you start acting out what you do in your daydreams by talking or moving. The daydreams can last several hours and are maybe comparable to a novel. E. g. I have certain "characters" in my daydreams that I have invented two years ago and who in my daydreams keep on experiencing adventures and stuff. I will use music to induce the dissociative trance necessary to forget about my real environment.
This daydreming thing enables me to enhance my mood for a few hours or so and prevents me from being suicidal, but it's also very addictive.
A lot of time just "disappears" threw this habit, and makes me even better able to surpress my problems and give in to my fears which prevent me from changing anything.
So... don't know, if there's anyone out who can relate to my coping methods, whould be glad to hear about. I guess there's nothing more to say. This is one of the rare occasions I'm giving in to my need to being social and communicating. Hope it'll bring some good.