In a different post in the depression topic I said that I am glad that I cut out all my friends. I knew when I did it that I probably shouldn't have but I really don't care.

Even when I did have friends, I never really felt like I was a part of that group and always had a hard time relating to them or often misinterpreting their intent.

I never really thought about it until I articulated it in a post and now it kind of gives me pause. It almost made me sound like a sociopath, except I do care about people, even strangers. I will stop to help people and feel empathy if I read about a tragedy happening to someone.

Recently, I had to go back to my old university to get my masters adviser to sign a form for the VA. I hadn't seen or talked to her since 2011 and she asked me to come back soon for more discussions. I learned two things from that. I really miss school, and ironically, teaching and I have zero desire to go back to visit her even though we had a very close, but always professional, relationship as both an undergrad and grad student.

I haven't been able to work for a few years so it is really difficult to explain it and get past the phone screens and she would be able to help me cut through that since she is very plugged into the local industry. Even for selfish reasons I can't get myself to want to go visit her again.

Is this normal behavior for an avoidant? My pdoc says he would diagnose me as schizoid if not for the fact that family is very important to me and I am close with my children as well as my parents and siblings.