I'm at the point of no return....I never feel like a fake, now if someone calls me a fake, then I would wanna know based on what..I've been coddled so much, by the 'secret club', that doubt never has a chance to sink in. And let me tell you confirmation or acceptance can have horrible consequences as well....I just worried about the on guardness by my alters seems a bit not like most systems only in that do I share of little bit of this feeling or similarity. Then I think well it has only been about 4 years,