I also had a terrible time after they put me on AD (antidepressants) I got much worse and very suicidal. Part of the problem is that I was an undiagnosed BP(bipolar) and back then they kept denying the side effects were real. It took me several years to realize the problem was ADs and then several years weaning off of ADs to get better. I'm not anti meds(I take a mood stabilizers and AP and it works very well) but I feel AD are very over prescribed and their side effects are down played.

The best thing I can recommend from personal experience is no more ADs, lots of low stress recreation, healthy food and good support systems...there is hope.