Feeling so lonely and the only person I can talk about this with is my T. I know she can't be my friend and to be honest I wouldn't want to change our relationship to a friendship, but she's the only one who seems interested in knowing who I am and what I feel and think.

I once had a friend whom I thought was interested in knowing me and me knowing her but that ended. And so I'm left with just my T - 50 minutes per week unless she's off which she will be for the next 2 weeks.

I'm not in crisis - just feeling very very lonely and I fear I may slip back into a depression that I suffered from a couple of years ago.

I'll be seeing my 'friend', my T on Wednesday and maybe the connection I'll experience with her then will help assuage my loneliness for awhile.

I've worked very hard to make new friends and I do have a lot of people I interact with - I volunteer a lot for non-profit organizations - but a deep friendship in which one shares one's deepest feelings with each other has not shown up in my life. (just once and that's over)

5 years I've been seeing her and I suspect she knows me better than I know myself. Being 'seen' is powerful and therapeutic. I'm pretty much invisible everywhere else.

Does anyone else feel that their T is their only 'friend'?