I know I'm really new here, but I've spent the past three months trying so hard to make the one moment or night that everyone wanted me to turn around THAT moment. Well, I don't think that moment exists. It's a process and a spectrum of good and bad moments and days. Hopefully with hard work and grit, the good days will increase. I cling to hope that it will, and I take it one day at a time. On the other hand, I've felt this disappointment over and over and over. I'm sorry you're feeling it now, too It WILL get better. Love the bright moments and find the silver lining in the dark ones. It WILL get better.