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Old Mar 21, 2016, 07:20 PM
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To every one:

I'm still frantic. The more I read, the more I realize the only non-morally-horrific life is a completely personally empty one. The things I dream of doing are a waste of time. This actually ties into the thread, since I call myself ambitious, say I want to do something with my life. But since valuing personal fulfilment over the wellbeing of the physically needy is morally wrong (I can link some articles if anyone wants), and the arts provide no significant good in the world...I see no reason to keep going. I have no justification; it's just too damn bad and no one cares. I can't live like that; I don't even care. I don't want that responsibility, I don't understand why I even have it. I just want everything to go away and stop, it's all moving too fast.

Someone talk to me, please. Anyone. I'll give you my number if writing is too slow. I know I'm a hysterical freak, and I'm sorry. Please...

Edit: Adding some links for people's reference. I'm desperate for input. (Not actually triggering):

Possible trigger:


God, I'm sorry. I'll retire after this if you guys want. Just how to I get past this dissonance? This is my torture, finding the right way to live. The apparent answer is something I can't submit to, but I want to be moral too...

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