You're 15. That in itself is a difficult age- hormones, confusion, not a kid/ not an adult.

You're genderfluid. I had to look that up. Also hard to deal with, especially at 15.

Are you doing any drugs? If so, that's adding more to the mix.

Then there's the cultural influence, the violent gaming and anime culture. I went through a punk phase in my generation.

So after these factors come the psychological issues. Personally, I think it is very inconclusive at your age, because you're not fully grown yet.

My son started complaining of depression and anxiety at your age. I talked with him about it and helped him learn to cope with it, saying how I would fear for him to take anti depressants until he was out of his teens because they have been known to cause very bad reactions in teens sometimes. Now that he's 19, he hasn't complained about depression. He's in college, has close friends, and is too busy to be depressed. He's enjoying it, though.

You may have other psychological issues. Reading about it is good, education is always good. But, you are going through so many changes right now as you are still growing.