its ok okie.

thank you for your kind words.

and i am feeling much better bebop thank you also for your consideration.

i just want everyone to be able to support each other in a nice considerate way and sometimes i feel everyone gets so wrapped up in society that we forget who we truly are and become something everyone else expects us to see. I have always been something that is not normally portrayed at my age group, never have been and i guess never will be. And it has always been others who judge me on my peers and that has what helped make my life soo difficult. Thats why no one believed me that my step father abused me or my mother verbally and mentally abused me, they thought since i was a teenager i was making things up, that i had done something like stayed out to late to deserve something, when in fact all i did was want to read a book and go to school and work two jobs inbetween. And to this day i still battle with others because no one believes me that i just wanted to be allowed to be quiet and alone ...i would present ideas in school and was laughed at and my teachers would pull me aside and say that i was wise beyond my years and they have not caught on just yet. No one seems to understand that age discrimination is as just as dangerous and invalid as racism...but those are just my thoughts.
thank you again
love,
inny