Hey Pinksoil,

I only went on Thursday this week because I was out of town visiting family on Tuesday. Therapy helped a lot. And now I'm closer to the next therapy session since it's only on Tuesday. Group's on Monday too though it might move (as in permanently) to Tuesdays. If it does, I'll try to move individual to later in the week. I think it would help me to space them out some since one will always be close. I wish I could see T by himself twice a week, but I guess this is the next best thing (and of course it's what he wants me to do -- and sometimes it is helpful).

Maybe I'll be able to talk about the nostalgia some in group. That could help. Last time I was there one member was really pressuring me to talk more about myself. And you know, I kinda liked it. Go figure.

Group was canceled this past week while I was away. I'm happy about that since it means I didn't miss anything.

I cry when I see old cards from my parents, from my ex-boyfriends, etc. It's all sad to me. I hope that if I can improve the present it'll stop feeling so sad. Or maybe it's just that when the present's good it's all I think about. The past may always be a background of sadness, but I won't always think about it.

Thanks, Sidony