I know what you mean Emmy. But I'm at a point where the only thing I want to do "for" myself is destroy myself.

I told the new T yesterday. It didn't go well. I think he just doesn't know me well enough to help, and I don't know how to help him help me. I emailed my regular T today and told her. I know she will not read the email until 7 tonight, though. She mentioned she wouldn't be home until then.

I am so upset. I don't know how to handle all this stuff.