I've asked my psychologist this question "WHY?" repeatedly.

She says that as she grows to know each client, caring naturally develops.

She says that it's because she can see the good in me - in each client before her.

She says she believes schema therapy won't work without genuine caring on her part as for each of her clients as the unique persons they are.

I still want to know WHY she cares about me. I used to say she just cared for me as "Just a job" but she has always asked me to Feel her care, that she believes her job is not "just a job", that she believes strongly in a dynamic, healing, "genuine" relationship between both members of the dyad.

I'm not fully convinced but after more then a year of seeing her once every two weeks and testing her and being met with compassion and acceptance and warmth and care, I believe she does care for me as a client.

WHY she cares for a worthless thing like me though? I'm still asking. She says I'm not the awful creature I believe myself to be.