Ok I'm going to tell one of the things that is bothering me right now. There is this family that was my second family when I was a teenager and we've stayed pretty close. They were kinda my safe place in the midst of all the *crap* that went on in my life and my own family.

Well anyway, I found out back then that the dad of this family- who i felt very safe with and really loved a lot, almost like my own dad- had messed around with their foster daughter years back. I guess I was in denial about it for a long time, even though I heard about it from a lot of different people and even the mom hinted at it. But anyway, I found out today that he just got fired (he was a teacher at my highschool) for looking at porn on his computer at school. It's more complicated than all this, but this is all i am able to get into. I just had to confide in someone.

I'm a mess over this.