I have been fortunate to have friends with whom I can confide my deepest feelings. One has been my friend for over 35 years, and though we live in different states and hardly ever see each other, I can trust her with my secrets.

I have made another new friend recently who is the same way. I can think of a couple more, too. I think my openness in therapy has carried over to real life. Or else I'm just lucky to have found these friends.

Are you assuming that the aquaintences you do have would not want a deeper relationship? Have you tested the waters with anyone? I know it's a risk, but my mother used to say "nothing ventured, nothing gained." It's great that you do a lot of volunteering, but have you made the step to ask someone to go to lunch, or get together? I think joining some kind of group or class is a good way to meet people. If you keep trying, there will be someone you click with. Unfortunately, it does take time to develop a close relationship. You've been seeing your T for a long time. That closeness didn't develop overnight.

I'm sorry you're feeling lonely and I know it's hard. But keep looking, and reach out to potential friends. Most people are looking for someone to share with. You may have to take the first step, and see what happens. You may be pleasantly surprised.