Sorry I didn't mean to ignore your post. I'm glad I helped you see with that insight about your brother. I see my T today. My feelings seem to have "died down." I will discuss it though. For me, the wanting to be punished also has some sexual aspect, because I think of spanking. But I don't want T to spank me, or anyone. It would hurt. I don't know what to tell my T. Shame, punishment, guilt, jealousy. All arising from reading her daughter's blog!!