I don't know what I'm feeling. After my visit with the therapist and a little anxiety, this last two days I had felt... calm? Without reason because I just barely started my therapy and I shouldn't just get over the anxiety attacks in the morning. Preoccupied with it and I'm doing more breathing acts to "protect" this calm yet it isn't an anxiety attack or wanting to cry or feeling terror for the future. I don't know what to feel and right know I feel a pressure in back, not of stress, but of something that wants to come out, like I'm very pissed about something (3 hours ruminating this, my god) and I want to shout or hit or cry and I can't. It's not painful and it's a walking to the park compared to other days, but it's so very uncomfortable and I honestly don't have (or don't remember) a frame of reference.