I know several of you have gone through this and perhaps do at the moment. In the beginning with my new T I had hopes about a successful therapy and therapeutic relation but for every new session with her I get more disappointed.

It has gotten that far that I now think of skipping the next session without stating any reason just to have a break from her and from disappointments.

It´s very hard to open up to a new person and then realise that I leave her feeling despondent and with less hope.

It has made me long for my old T more intensively again, I have never stopped missing her but now with I miss her even more. I close my eyes and cry and see my old T in my mind, a sweather she wore, her hair style, her office...