So I am scared shyteless about this new job I'm going to be starting in 2 weeks.

I could barely get myself to finally give my notice to my manager today. Like...duh!....I kind of have to tell the man that I'm not going to be there anymore!

I have only told 1 person in my family. None of my friends know.

What is the matter with me????

I know what the matter is.

I'm scared to paralysis that I'm going to screw this up. I'm scared my ADD is going to trip me up in the mornings and I'm not going to get out of the house to commute to the office and arrive ON TIME. (I will have to be getting up a LOT earlier in the morning than I have been in years to commute.) I'm scared I'm giving myself more credit than I deserve and that it's only a matter of time before they find out that I'm not capable and fire me. I'm scared the more people I tell, the more I invite the universe to rip the rug out from under my feet.

I'm terrified. I'm so f'ing terrified. This is my whole life: if I screw this up, I'm done for. Nobody and nothing to fall back on.

HELP. Please, please, please help.