T,

I'm feeling low. My mood, it's going down again. Your upcoming leave... I cant stop thinking about it. I think that's why I didn't had anxious feelings when I went to see replacement T without you. I'm worried about having to continue without you while I'm not ready for that yet. I don't have much room to worry about the session with replacement T.

I'm feeling angry. I don't want to see you anymore. I don't want to go to our session on Friday. It hurts. It hurts too much. You leaving me. I thought I would have your support during the next months. But no. I'm not important. I'm nothing. I'm work. I might quit at this practise. I might quit T's all together. I just cant have more T's messing me up. That one year in that intensive therapy programm... It made me feel worse than I had ever felt. And you're the only good T I have seen and you cause me also much hurt.

I don't want to do this anymore. I cant. It will be the end of me one day. It's better to not see any T's again. I should look for some other kind of help.