You've got a point Alex, the flip of emotions happens differently session to session too.

He says that he is busy and I know that on Thursday's he goes to a different location that is far away. As for Friday, tomorrow? Who knows.

I know he has second sessions with other people because I've heard some of them schedule one when they leave. It's none of my business though and can't use them as an example. Therapy is different for all of us.

You might remember the insurance nightmare T and I had when we did two sessions for two weeks. But I have new insurance now and it is unlimited for outpatient mental health sessions.

I hope he's busy and not just pushing me to the side. I brought up a second session last week and he said 'yes' and he even commented that we needed to get caught up on some things.

When I first arrived yesterday, I asked him if he wanted to start with anything and he looked confused and said no so I brought out my chart. I don't know if he forgets what he says, or changes his mind but it's confusing to me.

It doesn't matter, in my mind I know, there will never be a second session and he's not going to check on me like some of the T's do on here when I have rough sessions like last week and this week.

It's just not going to happen so why wish for it right? I'm sitting here with my mind over mood book trying to figure out how this is going to work...thanks for asking. Bet you didn't think my response would be this long...