So I've posted in other forums here about my relationship with a girl who I work with, I think I referred to her as Katie. I am 17, she is 23, we met in December and immediately hit off, we got super close and intimate and such. My parents totally disapproved based on the age gap, led to me going behind their backs, etc.... I came to this site seeking help and advice over my parents disapproving, which was beyond extreme. Now, I need help because I feel like my world has ended.

Katie and I were never official per say but we basically were dating. We had the intimacy (no sex, we were smart about that!) and the connection, she is the only girl I have ever felt totally 100% comfortable being myself around. I love this girl, she made me just feel so special and lucky and happy all the time...And on February 20th, she stopped talking to me, lied to me about why (said the age gap suddenly mattered) and then I found out 2 days later that she was with another guy. I was absolutely crushed, I went off on her, and we didn't speak from February 22nd until this afternoon at work, for about 5 minutes.

When I found out she had lied and was with another guy, I cried for hours, I was pissed off, I was just destroyed by it. As the past month has gone by, I gradually got my emotion in check but I absolutely miss her more than I can describe, sometimes I would just get totally down because I missed her so much, miss what we had. And today, after talking to her and realizing it's been a whole month since things ended, I was upset... I finished my shift and when I got home I just went to my room and started crying my ****ing heart out. I've cried for hours at this point, I am so depressed over losing this girl. Hearing her voice just sent me into a downward spiral... I am totally heartbroken. I love her, I only ever wanted what was best for her and I got THIS... and despite the fact that she has hurt me more than anyone else ever has in my life, I still love her just as much and would give anything to have her....

The last time I cried before this girl came into my life was when my grandfather died of lung cancer in 2010. I was holding his hand when he took his last breath. I keep a lot of emotion inside, normally I don't get this upset and I still never cry... so why, after 6 years, would I suddenly start crying uncontrollably for the 2nd time in a month?