i feel like i totally understand... i like you have repeated mistakes by letting myself get involved in something i should have avoided. then comes the agonizing, asking myself question afer question.. searching for answers. questions like.. oh this is so painful to write, to reveal. qustions like WHY? you seem so cool, and everybody always seems to like me... soo why do we let creeps take advantage? do i want to hurt? what is up? you sound like such an interesting, fun, deep person. something negative happens and then you let something else negative happen... it does give us some beautiful attributes, but can't we have these without all the PAIN!? DESTINY? INNER PROBLEM? POOR JUDGEMENT?