Ginger or mint tea works wonders for nausea - I only discovered this for myself about 2 years ago. Maybe that would help?

I'm very much alone, too, Dex, which I appreciate most of the time. Except when it comes to house stuff. I do have friends and I guess they would be there in times of need but that's exactly when I don't engage with them. I wish I could lend them to you.

I had a great aunt who didn't marry until she was 60, who I only knew as a kid but wish I could know more of her story. Pretty atypical for her generation, especially.

I know what it's like to lament the future - it's an awful symptom of depression. I understand the suicidal ideation as well. I'm so very sorry you are going through it, but very glad you now have help. One day at a time!

Hugs.