you need what ever it takes... its differnt for everyone
i was on 9 medications and still not doing ok... but they were probably just not complimenting each other...

will your T be around for a while?
if so why not rely on her.... its what she wants right...?
she help you get stronger...

how long have you been on the meds..?

i live in a supportive house too with my parents... they try to do everything they can for me but i try not to let my real pains show... i dont want them to know whats going on...
dont want to worry them...

i know how you feel...

i started sh like that too... after a while i told my case manager and she got me in the hospital and i stopped for a year... or maybe 2 years... i cant keep up with time...

now i started doing it again and trying not to... i am fine for some days until i get so stress i cant handle it anymore...

i hate it...


i would die if anyone saw mine... i will probably never take my shirt off again around anyone (im a guy of course..)
i can wear short sleeves, i just conceal higher up...

it sound like you know its a bad thing too...?

i try to do anything, everything else before that...
can you try to replace it with something... not permenantly right off, but just next time maybe can try ..? i dunno what might work for you... i just try to distract myself with music... it helps for some days, im getting better again... well...


please be kind and gentle with yourself

rely on your T ... its not a bad thing to do i think...? i know what you mean about dependence... but isnt it better than sh..? try not to depend on that...
im sorry you are hurting... i m sending you virtual strenght....