I have some seriously sick thoughts going through my head. I don't know how much longer I can avoid this. I am scared, afraid of myself. I keep crying and can't stop and feel so alone.

I want someone so bad, just to be with me. I am sooo scared. I know how sick I am, is this worth fighting for anymore?? I can't take this sadness, the total devastating feeling rushing inside. Its the worst pain I have felt. I am in trouble.

Justy