Hi, I am new here so bare with me!

In short I have anxiety/depression issues. I have had counselling before and I struggled. This time I was hoping would be different but I just freeze up in sessions. My third session my T told me that if I don't change and talk to her in the next session, I will have to leave, as she has a long waiting list. I left feeling incredibly guilty about attending, shameful of my actions, or lack of, and embarrassed.

My issue is, If somehow I manage to go in and talk like she wants, will she just think I've been fake and attention seeking?! If I don't, she'll sign me off, and I'm back to square one. I have a toddler at home to look after, I need to get better.

Thanks in advance xx