Well I chickened out I couldn't tell my friend. She knew something was wrong and ask me about it a few times and I refused to talk about it. I don't know what happened, I went with the intention of talking to her about it. I couldn't even admit that I had cut again yesterday. I got scared. I cant go to the hospital again. It will cost me my job and I cant lose that right now. Cause if I lose my job, I lose m,y house and car. I would lose everything. If I stay out of the hospital, I stand a chance of not losing everything as long as I choose like i did last night and just cut. I know it is probably not the best thing for me to do right now, but it is all i can do.
Nicole