Hi and welcome. I'm sorry that your T has put such an ultimatum on you to talk. And after only 3 sessions - I have a hard time opening up to new Ts in the beginning as well. Please don't beat yourself up. Are you doing the best you can do in your session? If you are, you have nothing to feel guilty or ashamed of. You are simply moving at your own pace. There is nothing wrong with that. If your T doesn't have patience to work with you at your pace, that might be a red flag. I don't know. Of course, I wasn't there for the context. Hang in there and just do the best you can. Stretch a bit if you can to be open with her, but if it doesn't feel right, trust yourself about what to share. Again, welcome.