Hey all, I'm new here. Low self esteem since childhood. I've read more books and articles than I can count with no lasting positive results. Something I've boiled it down to is that I'm just not "good" at anything and don't have any useful gifts/talents. Don't get me wrong, there are many things I am "not bad" at, but nothing about me stands out and it drives me nuts. So when I hear 'don't listen to the mean voice telling you you're not good at ..., don't believe it" this just doesn't work for me. I've tried exercises of listing out good things about myself and can stare at a blank page for an hour. I have an average income and an average home. I workout daily however I only lift an average amount of weight and run a below average pace. I'm not butt-ugly but I'm not good-looking either. I'm decent at my job and do my best, however I'm well below the level of those at the top of the field. I could go on forever but you get the point. Just mediocre.

Maybe I'm looking for validation from others to feel worth. I just cant seem to "get" SELF worth and that its ok to not be good at things. I don't love myself or my life despite all the blessings around me. I cant determine a purpose of my life. Or how my being here really benefits anyone since I bring nothing special to the table that nearly anyone else could bring. Any thoughts or insights are much appreciated.