i really hope the wellbutrin will kick in and help like it did in the past too
its my favorite antidepressant because doesnt have those sexual side effects

did the wellbutrin make you nauseous last time?
i never took any sleep meds like ambien so i dont know much about them..
klonopin never made me nauseous it actually helped with it a little because my anxiety will get so bad i will feel dizzy and nauseous

they gave me a nausea drug for a little while though i cant remember what it was called... but she said it was the same one they use for cancer patients, it helped a bit..

need to try to eat a little bit even if you really feel like you cant... i know how it is because i sometimes go a few days without eating myself.. but its good to try to just take a bite of a saltine cracker or something like that.. can make us feel worse when we dont eat but sometimes feel so bad just cant!! its a spiral of doom

i think the wellbutrin can decrease the appetite a little... but depression can too so its like, cant tell which is which?

for me i rarely have an appetite anyway, i dont like eating :/
so i can't ever tell if a drug takes appetite away or not (besides the stimulants)

yeah my first T told me to try to identify triggers too but i was just like, umm... my trigger is everything!
i've been sitting alone relaxing and trying to enjoy a video game or something and all of a sudden panic... out of the blue... maybe i had a memory come in my mind or a flashback or something that causes those random panics! but its hard to remember what happens during / after / before panic for me
so its reeaally hard to try to identify triggers as they say

i dont know if my anxiety is similar to yours.. but i understand... it really is scary, it sucks so bad and just wanna make it better but seems like it wont get better, and really seems like it gets worse everyday because the anxiety / panic attacks make us weaker each time everyday, its easy to lose hope and faith that it can get better.. but it really can, we just have to keep with treatment

just have to try to focus on the goal... goal is to reduce anxiety... help the depression get better... and be able to relax

in the past i would never go to the dr, because of anxiety i guess... but also i guess ididnt want to admit something was wrong... i just self medicated everything away..
i really didnt like pills, i wouldn't even take tylenol or ibuprofen for a headache!
but 2011 i started to try to tell myself i need professional help.. tried celexa and like month later on a drunkin panic attack stupor i flushed all the pills down the toilet and just tried to drink everything away... then in 2012 i was so tired and just couldn't keep going the way i was going... went back to dr and got zoloft + klonopin and klonopin helped the anxiety but zoloft was kinda crappy for me(went up to 200mg and didnt have any effect)..
a few months after talking to that GP i decided i needed psychiatrist and worked on getting in the mental health clinic and then everything got crazy, lots of meds and varying effects... so now i think meds can help... but has to be the right meds, and not too many meds! medication is probably safer than me self medicating atleast.. thats what i tell myself

so i know what you mean about the meds

can you try to be patient with yourself..? i know i get really mad at myself because seems like i dont make any progress.. but i try to remind myself that doesnt help.. we have to be patient with ourselves while trying to let these meds help.. is there something small that you can carry around that makes you feel good, relaxes you, helps you visualize a good place, so that everytime you feel the anxiety coming you can take it and hold it and look at it and stuff like that? maybe a photo or a special trinket ?

the klonopin are great, but it seems your anxiety is pretty big too and i know i started relying on the klonopin and developed the tolerance and ended up having to take more.. but then when it got to where if i didnt take them everyday several times a day i would be so bad... i dont want you to lose the efficacy of the klonopin and have higher anxiety because its not working anymore it happened to me and i had to make myself tell the dr i wanted a "vacation" from them but he didnt help me at all with it and wouldn't give them back after 4-5 months when i asked... grrrr

now im not on any anxiety meds

i hope your bf is able to hang in there too..

sorry about my rambling!!
i zone out sometimes when writing and just scribble