Gonzorat
yeah i was on 150mg trazodone to try to help sleep, i still have 2 bottles of it.. i take one every now and then when im really desperate but its not something that really knocks me out.. so i dont really try it very often... dunno why meds dont seem to have proper effect on me at the clinic they said they gave it to everyone and it helps then fall asleep - i guess part of it is my anxiety... my anxiety is out of control right now
i can get things done, but i dont really have much to do.. its like im just not tired at all... my last pdoc diagnosed me bipolar I and thought i was having mania too but its not mania... i just dont get tired sometimes for some reason... sometimes my body will get tired but my mind wont... sometimes my mind will be tired and my body wont be... sometimes my mind and body are tired but i dont want to sleep because of nightmares but i have dealt with it for a long time so usually i just try to distract myself with reading
i dont think its mania because im still really depressed... i've never felt euphoria or had impulsivity... ya know the mania stuff... so i really dont know why he diagnosed me with bipolar :/
psychologist i saw in january agreed with me and said that its adhd + mdd instead of bipolar

basically when im sleepless i just read about random things, medications, treatments, science stuff, pretty much anything that will catch my attention and help me distract myself for a little while
but i guess because of the adhd i dont really ever get bored... when i lose interest in something - something else just catches my interest and i switch to it, ya know?

i did finally go to sleep
had some fun dreams too i love dreaming about pretty women!
why cant they make a medicine to make us dream about that stuff?
cure for depression?

my brother takes remeron, i thought about it.. but im scared of anything that can cause gynecamastia because the zyprexa seemed to start causing it but i stopped taking it before it really developed... doc said i would probably be fine but the lumps in my chest told me otherwise ...

i have melatonin and valerian root too.. i just haven't taken them because i forgot about them, didnt take them before because i was on so many meds :/
will see if there is an interaction with wellbutrin..

thanks all
hope everyone can get some good sleep and fun dreams