I had this belief for a long time that meds early on made things worse for me. I learned during my undergrad that sudden changes or stops in antidepressants can cause symptoms to worsen, and my first t did just that. She didn't even consult with a psychiatrist, as far as I know, just prescribed through my GP who didn't know anything about mental health or meds. But with the way things have been going lately, eventually I just realized that i needed something else to help me now.

I'm trying to make myself eat. I have soup and some cheesy bread with me today, should be ok on my stomach. I can't remember if the wellbutrin made me nauseous before, but I think I remember having some side effects for a couple weeks. I just smoke, then I can eat

I have a hard time identfying triggers too. Most of the time I'm just not paying that much attention to my body until the panic starts to set in. We did talk today about my anxiety in crowds, and how that might have built up. Having something with me to relax me might be a good idea, I'll have to see if I can find something.

I might need to talk to the pdoc about other options for the anxiety. I was dealing with a lot of anxiety-provoking situations yesterday and ended up taking 4. I'm worried about not having it when I need it, so I think i've been a little too liberal.