Hi paintedsmiles

Thank you for your reply.

You sound quite low and not really sure where and who to turn too. The situation about your first t has stuck with you and it sounds like you didn't get closure from that. And now your new t is making you feel pressured and causing you more anxiety. Do you have an option of going private at all rather than nhs? So that you would be able to feel less pressure and be able to express yourself more without them knowing one another.

I think I came to a point in my therapy where I feel I am able to cope without t. I have off days, but am giving myself time.