But probably more relevant to this forum/thread, I still don't understand why I am so emotionally unstable as a result of this relationship I had. It's weird, to me - I was an absolute wreck last night, I cried for about 3.5 hours total before I could calm myself down and go to sleep... and today I'm not anywhere close to worked up. I'm my usual, emotions-to-myself self. I was honest about my feelings with Katie today, I told the absolute truth of how I felt as a result of this all and how I've been feeling, but I never got choked up or anything, I'm not choked up now. I don't feel like bursting into tears when I think of her at this exact moment... I wonder if there's some issue with myself, I don't feel really much of ANYTYING at the moment emotionally. I'm just kind of "here", impassive and stoic.