Hi Paintedsmiles

I'm in the UK, so I understand the limitations in place. I hear that you're worried that she will think you're fake if you start to come out with stuff now...I honestly feel that she will accept you and your process, but, in a way, does it matter? You have three sessions left, so if you can find any way to get something out, then the important thing is how it benefits you, and not how your T thinks of you.

You are not able to build a long term relationship with her, so if you can, try and focus on just your needs, and not her opinion of you, if you can. Writing things down may really help. I initially just wrote fragments, a couple of words, then T asked me a bit more...

Also, I've had good experiences talking to the Samaritans. Could you try them as a test run, get used to saying a few words before your next session?

Good luck!