Thanks everyone. The silences aren't great. As a child feelings have never been something I've been allowed to talk about, and she knows that. The main issue for her is, and I more than understand, that with me being in the UK and having been referred for counselling on the Nhs, there is a long waiting list of people, and we have limited sessions. This ofcourse adds to the pressure.

I have written some starting points down for next session, I just hope she will read them and start me off. The silences aren't good. I literally cannot speak. I get angry with myself for it, I try, but I just feel like I will vomit if I do. Sometime I can say the odd few words, sometimes I can whisper. I sound so pathetic!

I am so worried that If I can put a front on and really let things out after her reading my notes next week, she won't believe me.

She is so lovely. But I felt like a naughty child being told off in class this week!

Thanks again xx