I am writing to you to let you know that at this moment, these are the thoughts and feelings that I am currently experiencing. It's fairly uncomfortable to share, but I wanted to share so I can get myself out of this state of mind, because like was stated before as soon as the "flow" starts, the mental exhaustion and the second guessing myself ends.

This is how I feel:

Oh boy! It's one of those days, my period is about to start, and, I start to second guess myself. I feel like I am doing nothing right. I feel as though I can't do my job properly. I can't communicate properly, and although no one is out to get me, I feel like everyone is out to get me.

Things bother me beyond nothing else. So what I am trying to do mentally is try and use "mental" boxes. I try and place the things in my mind that bother me and compartmentalize them. I have to strain mentally to keep them in that box so I can deal with them in a rational way.

But sometimes it's a hard thing to do, being to keep them in the box. But so far, I have calmly and rationally handled the things that bother me. It is so exhausting.

I feel like I am not learning my life's lesson when I feel this way. It's uncontrollable. However, I know at the end of the day, everything will be fine. I just know it. But until such time as the "fog" migrates away I will keep putting these off feelings aside (I do acknowledge them, but I try not to let them consume me).

Just wanted you to know how I am feeling today.