do you have PTSD psychnitrous?

do you see a therapist? i cant remember if i asked already...
my memory is really ... heh i dont have a memory i should say :/

i know how you feel though..
cant remember if you said you can only smoke on the weekends, but if not, can you focus on the evening and getting that one "guilty" pleasure?

i know it wont make it all better but maybe it can help distract you a little to help a little... i used to do that... like when i go to an appointment i would get through it by saying i will have some beers and smoke when i get home... keeping my focus on that instead of the stress and anxiety of having to do the appointments...