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Originally Posted by granite1
that is exactly how i feel . that there is just something fundamentally wrong with me and always has been . right or wrong i feel this strongly . i dont understand how so many people could ignore so much . i even directly told a teacher one time . one morning before school the mother was chocking me for some reason . this of course left scratches and big bruises on my neck . the teacher asked me what happened i told me my mother did it and she just ignored it completely . it just seemed to be so common place that a mother would be chocking her kid before school . i took it as it was not all that big of a deal . this seemed to be the reaction most all people in my life had
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Unfortunately Granite, when you were young, abuse wasn't taken as seriously as it is today. That is a terrible thing, and i know the shame you feel is so profound which is why you feel like no matter what, you are a horrible person. I just think you are thinking completely in black and white. Either you are a horrible person and deserve all your friendships ending, or they all hate you (because you are a horrible person). Except, from what you've said, your friends DO care about you, it sounds like the owner of the store kept trying to keep in contact with you. I don't know the specifics of what happene,d but you may have blown it out of proportion (maybe?). If you ever want to PM me, you know where i am.