im going to contact my cousin and ask him, my memory is bad but i believe his bf is from new jersey so i'll find out

you have a few years on me.. but i know how it feels to feel like no one wants anything to do with you... i've never had a relationship before - still a virgin - and not really all that interested in just sex, i want a friend.. someone that will be my best friend and sex could just be a + ya know?
not something thats super important to me :/ i cant lay with someone i dont love so...

its not easy for me to go out though, i think its good that you go out and try atleast, i beat myself up because sometimes i feel like if i tried harder maybe i could meet someone, like you said im a kind compassionate smart interesting individual that really isn't ugly.. i dont think im ugly.. i mean obviously i dont think im sexy, but i feel like girls should be attracted to me - maybe i am more good looking than i think and girls just get nervous around me ? heh probably not though, im a loner...

i dont think a relationship/companionship will cure my depression but i think it would help for some reason, its one thing i havent tried.. would be nice to have someone that i can be me with

so i totally feel where you are coming from
i wish these things were easier :/

i hope i didnt offend you by saying anything, wasn't trying to say you just have to try.. or anything like that..

im going to email him now.. i'll send you a pm with his reply instead spamming your thread

hang in there mate...