smoking really does help, dunno why they dont realize how beneficial it can be for some people because everyone has different reactions to any kind of medicine...

well ... anyone can develop PTSD... even if you think the things weren't that bad compared to other people, that doesnt matter... what matters is how your mind handled it.. im not suggesting that you have it, but you never know... it might be part of the severity of these symptoms you have ongoing... im no professional so i say MIGHT in capital letters ya know
just may be something you could ask your therapist about... for me i have so many triggers because of PTSD...
atleast i think thats why... i really need a therapist :/

about the crashing on klonopin - i think its called rebound anxiety... but im not sure why you would be having that so soon.. maybe your anxiety is really severe - mine is like that and i would still have anxiety/panic even while shoving more in my mouth

seeing T is a good idea, try to take it easy... sometimes we wont let ourselves feel better because we feel like if we did then we would be ignoring a problem or something like that? not really sure ... but i think i end up doing that sometimes by accident...

hang in there