that is my feelings exactly

i have always had depression but when i met a girl that i really liked and fell in love and turned around that it couldn't be that way - well.. it can make depression spread like wildfire :/

i feel like being accepted by someone would really help...

i fear getting close to people, even as friends..(im not even close with family..) so intimacy is something that - well i just dont do that - but im a romantic at heart and it would be nice to get past the intimacy block... maybe can even start making friends easier.. be able to be myself more... just because i would feel accepted and that people can accept me.. for who i really am :/