Mouse is here and well. I have been reading this forum all summer and keeping up with ((everyone)) here!

Yes I had a disagreement with some matters and haven't change my mind about them, but I miss you guys here and decided to take what I need and leave the rest.

I guess theres always going to be something in life I dont' feel comfortable with, but I have felt comfortable here when I was here in this forum!

I go back to T on monday at the after 5weeks of no T. This time though I have missed T very much, the fear that she has ceased to exist or forgotten about me or may never return has gone..

I've also realised that I need to talk to her about how I have tried to become her. I need to start working out who I am and who she is.

I expect this is a natural growth developement in a childs life, trying see mother as a sperate person?

Ive been copying reading material that I've seen on T's shelfs and tried to be the person I think she is.

Yes at times those things fit me too, because really I know very little about who T really is so it will be me adapting who I am to who I think she is.

SG, sorry you've been suffering so much, I agree with what others have said about reading.

((everyone)) here.