Dear university therapist,

I will try not to send you any emails, actually. I will try to distance myself from you. I wish I had an academic mentor who didn't mean so much to me, someone whose opinions I didn't care about. Someone who didn't make me feel so many things.

It hurts me to be away from you for three weeks. In fact, it hurts me that I can only see you once a week. How am I going to cope when you inevitably leave me?

Love should be a commitment. It isn't just something you say, and certainly not to someone you're prepared to walk away from once your time with them is "up". How can it be that easy for you? How can you call it "love" when I am of so little importance, at the end of the day?

I think it's time for me to shut down and pull back. I'm just not sure I can do it.

Because I love you. I don't want to, but I do. How can I make it stop?