Clearly T, I shouldn't write "feel free to ignore this email" unless i really mean it, because i guess i didn't since i am slightly sad you didn't write back. In my logical mind, i know i didn't write anything that needed a response, i just felt so lousy i wanted to "connect" to you in some way. It is fine, and i'm sure you'll bring it up in our session, but this is WHY i dislike WANTING to connect to you. See. It brings expectations and disappointments and other gross feelings into the mix. I need to dial it back and let go of that stuff, because I dislike it greatly.