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Originally Posted by Tnttiger124
As much as i appreciate everyone's responses, i feel i need to elaborate a bit more on what's going on. Basically, when i was little, i was super energetic like most kids, but a bit more than normal, i used to be really outgoing, loved just about everything i did, and didn't have much of a care in the world. Now, as the years have passed i've become little more than a distant shadow of that personality and am more distant in general from others. I find i really just hate a lot of people, including myself, i don't ask for anything at all from my parents, i worry about bills even though i don't need to pay any and never have, i can't get into a game even if i absolutely loved it just the week before, and over time i've lost interest in things more and more quickly. It's like no matter what i do i just can't get into anything, i get pissed off at things super easy, and i just feel like sleeping all day even if i'm not tired, just because i feel i have nothing else to do. It's made me feel like i want to cry so often and i've already noticed my stress levels are at least high, though i'm not sure due to not having gone to a professional as i have no way to get to one on my own, and i don't want to make my family worry if something's wrong with me, i prefer to just leave my family out of my issues. I just really don't know what to do anymore and i really don't have anyone to talk to or anything, i don't have any friends irl, i don't want my family at all involved in anything to do with me, and i have no shoulder to cry on when i really need it. My personal quote is "People cry, not because they are weak. It's because they've been strong, for too long.", honestly i'm not even sure where i even heard it but it just stuck with me. Sorry for the rant, i feel as if it sorta got a bit derailed there...point is i don't know what to do and i'm losing interest in things faster and faster every day, at the rate it's going it just feels like soon, i'll go to sleep loving something, just to wake up an hour later and find i just really don't want to do it because it's just not fun to me.
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I am sorry you are going through this, unfortunately we are not able to diagnose \ tell you what this is with in you. here all we can do is tell you whether we have gone through it and what our own treatment providers call it in....our selves.
to find out what is going on with in you , you will need to contact a treatment provider (medical doctor, therapist or psychiatrist) in your own off the computer location.
for example you said you worry about bills. in me this is called normal stress related to being an adult partly responsible with my wife for three children a home and pets. I deal with this stress by talking with my wife and with my therapist.
suggestion...maybe you can find a way to talk with someone you trust or locate a therapist that can help you with your worries about your bills.
another example of what we do here....
you posted that sometimes you go to sleep with a plan and then when you wake up you dont want to do that any more... in me this is veeerrry normal. my wife and I make plans for what to do the next day but many times when we wake up those plans are scrapped either because one or the other doesnt want to do that any more or because circumstances cause that change (weather, childrens needs and what have you) my point with in me and my family changing plans is just normal.
suggestion maybe you can contact a treatment provider who can diagnose whether this is normal or not with in you.
see what I mean we cant tell you what your problems add up to, make a diagnosis of your problems all we can do is tell you whether we go through the same thing and how we handled that same problem. and make suggestions that may help but only you and your treatment providers can decide whats what in you and what you should or have to do about your problems.