Thanks guys. Yeah, I have no one to room with. The people I would consider rooming with have just found places with their boyfriends, one of them in another country. I definitely can't find a stranger to live with either, because I would constantly feel unsafe.

My boyfriend and I feel the same way about our relationship, like it's an indefinite one. We notice each other growing a part, but we know each other so well that I think we just like that we each have someone that supports us through all our crap. We are still very close and happy, we just see a different outcome now.

I've come to realize that my mom is the kind of parent that unintentionally makes their children feel incapable. The type of parent that feels their children need their parent to do everything for them. I am 20 now and I still find her making me feel like I can't do anything right. I've always felt incapable, and find that I surprise myself a lot of the time when I find out I can do things by myself. I am very independent, and try my best to be, but having my mom around is really messing with my self-confidence.

As you can see, I'm pretty set on moving in with my boyfriend. I just think that it's a great opportunity for me to get back to my old confident self. I'd have the house to myself a lot of the time and just be able to get done what I need to get done, with no distractions.

I am currently on disability assistance for depression and anxiety, but I think if he and I living together ended up not working out, I could get a part time job. My disability assistance allows me to make up to a certain amount per year in addition to the disability assistance. I just did the math, and if I got a job, I would have more than enough to pay all of the bills by myself at the place I am at now. I am a very frugal person so it's not hard for me. This gives me a lot of reassurance. I could tell my boyfriend that if he doesn't want to live where I am living, then I will just get a job and live here by myself. That's sooo relieving to be able to say now.