hmm..
im more comfortable around my immediate family... my parents.. 3 of my brothers and sister... but even then im not what i would consider close... i don't open up to them, i dont really hug or touch... i dont like to be touched... but i do love them very much, more than i love myself!

i also want friends... but i dont... its a conflict for me, i dont want people to be close to me but i enjoy friendship... but i dont have any friends...

i dont really care though, i mean it doesn't bother me that much... i would like to have friends and have close friends, but i can't so.. what can ya do?

maybe one day i'll be more comfortable with people

the psychologist didnt want to dx me with avpd so he just wrote in the notes that i have avpd traits...

are you really repulsive about the idea? or is it just that it makes you so uncomfortable you would like to just avoid it all together