Awww I'm very sorry. I know that has to hurt.

I guess that's where I'm lucky. I'm fat and talking the kind of fat you can't hide So I never had to worry that someone would get a closer look and then say "DAMN she BIG!!" and walk away. If they couldn't tell I was big before they got up close and personal then they were blind Plus it helps when you are so depressed and apathetic that you really don't give a shite what other people think of you. Gives you a kind of confidence that pulls people in.