Please contact me somehow to let me know about today. I know you are probably still waiting to hear about the cancellation and I know it is still early but it doesn't feel early to me because I have been up half the night. I have told too many people too many things in my search for a new T. I have tried to run and I can't even crawl yet and I am paying the price. My head is a mess and I feel physically ill. I really need you now before you disappear for three weeks. And I am scared you are going to get eaten by sharks even though I know it sounds ridiculous. Where are you T.